Sunday, June 03, 2007 @ 6/03/2007 11:53:00 AM
| So what? |
I hate to think about my life.
Dehydrated.
After talking to her for the whole of last night, I begin to understand the 4-letter "L" word.
So what if you put in your best
So what if you eventually put your signatures on a piece of paper
So what if you eventually exchanged vows in front of an audience
So what if you planned your entire life in preparation for a future together
Because
you thought you knew what you wanted
you thought you knew he's the one
So what?
I can picture myself in the light of her present situation. It's sad.
So sad that she's no where to go during the weekends. She doesnt know how to spend her time without him. She doesnt know where her friends have gone to.
That's life, once again.
How many times have I mentioned the down-sides of life?
Was reading thru many people's archive and I am probably the only one who least often felt blessed and blissful.
I only wanted an ordinary life.
I only wanted a stable job. Be with a simple guy. Lead a normal life.
But I guess, that's the hardest thing to do - being simple, in this busy world with everyone thinking otherwise. Everyone's working for something. If nothing else, they tell me about working for "self satisfaction". If I ever believed in this, i probably will be happier.
If I want to do something, I want to make it known. I want to be affirmed.
If not, then dont do it.
What's the point of suffering in the name of self satisfaction while the rest of the world think you're only doing what you're supposed to do?
If you achieved something beyond expectation - "It's your Job"
If you dont - "you're lousy"
Self satisfaction comes in the form of being taken for granted?
Then I'd rather not be satisfied.
Ironic isnt it.
I want to lead a simple life but I want the world to know I am leading a simple life.
WTF
See? It all boils down to the basics.
I dont know what I want.
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