My left arm + palm is suffering from muscle ache. The sufferings from the attempt to bring in 3 pillows, 1 water bottle, 1 hp from the living room to my bedroom. Yes.. I watch TV with 3 pillows.

i hate to take bus to sch!

i hafta get up at 530. then leave home at 6 if i wanna catch the 610 bus. whereas i wil onl wake up at abt 6 and leave at 640 if i drive.

So today is bus day. That's wad i did, excpt that i snoozed the blardy alarm to wake me up 10 mins later. Then prepard.. was so glad that i managed to leave home at 6.. jus when i was a few metres away from the bus stop, ther i saw, my bus..... it's early today... instead of reaching at 610, today is 607am! BlarDy shiT. so yep, i refuse to run and make a fool of myslf early in the morning, so i took my time and allow the bus to miss me!

Also mus mention abt today. 28 Sept 2005 is declared Bad Alarm Day by me. Remember i said i snoozed that dam thing once, then i woke up aft turnin it off.... then when i was in the bathroom, the alarm rang again... damiT... den also my mum's alarm went off for no apparent reason, the hp alarm rang and the phone vibrated and.. eventually landed on the floor. Then my neighbour's alarm rang.... wad's wif all the alarms todaY??

Today is a tiring morning... starting off with a boring bus journey. I do not understand a single bit why the stupid bus company mus try to be funny and use a single-deck bus when they know that the bus is gonna be dam fuking crowded even when it reaches my stop at 610AM!!??

Wad on earth were they thinking abt when they chose to take that bus out!?!

FUCK!

Wil be goin for my interesting course today again... followed by a kopi session with my fellow colleagues, dat is if everything goes as planned.

tmr is dot day again.. long time no dot day

ok.

T.G.I.F again... Phew.... my long awaited break for 2 days. Aft dat chiong for another 4 days den ta-da...... free liao.haahaah..

I realised why i chose this job. The bad thing abt my job - everyone knows. so i shant elaborate. The good thing is that, i can always look forward to a break after every 3 - 6 months. I enjoy travellin. I know exactly how i want my life to be in another 2 -3 years. I want to travel whenever i get my long breaks.

That is wad i will not be able to do if im in other jobs.

Did some silly tests while waiting for Joyce's call....WahlaOzz.. the quizzes dam blardy long.... irritating..

But nonetheless, i did 2.
waahahahahah

31 is a rather low LQ, meaning your social relations are rather on track. There is some room for improvement, but overall you are doing well. You are okay in your relations with your friends. This is good. Additionally, your family situation is not causing you any troubles. A positive family situation is definitely helpful. An area for improvement is your love life, which is not in terrible shape, but can be improved. Thankfully you do not have a problem with shyness, so pursuing romantic leads will not be as difficult for you. On a final note, there seem to be some insecurity issues that you need to work through. Improving self-esteem will aid you in lowering your LQ.

Take the Loneliness Quotient Test at Dating Diversions

Guess today is not a gd day for stomachs. Therefore i shall officially launch

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FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

early in the morning problems.

Good thing is that my day ends early. at 1130am, im free. woohoOooo .. Finally something to cheer about in duno how many days.

He's on MC and he still needs to go back to sch to hand in his assignment. Cos e fukin lecturer says that they might not accept the MCs. Tht's y i say his present sch (my ex-sch) is FUCKED UP. My greatest regret i must say. The ppl in the dept i was in when i was there, made me realised the truth of education. The sickening truth and they almost tell u blatantly in ur face to lick their boots, if not u're out. If i were him, i wouldnt go all the way back. If they do not accept my MC, either they check out with my doc or give me a justified reason. IF not im gonna lodge a complaint.

There's no reason for not accepting MCs and make a sick person travel all the way back ther just to hand in assignment! FUCKED up.

I've been dam blardy lousy at my language recently.

Pardon me.

Im stresseD Up.

I hate it when he has to go for lion dance. I really do.

It's not the first time i've told him. But does he fukin care? NO!

It's been quite a while since we graduated, his passion for it still burns like fuk. How can someone goes on like this? When the whole world's against it, he still goes ahead and thinks that everyone's in the wrong. He should do what he likes. He refuses to compromise a fukin bit.

I hate the coach. Cos i think he's a freaggin dirty old man who keeps a mistress and is not ashamed to let the world noe. Even we noe abt it cos he'll bring her ard when he attends events held by us. He's got 2 kids and he's doin this. That is why i despise him as much as cockroaches. And secondly, he takes his men for granted. He thinks that they're always ther for him. Ther's no need to treat ppl nice cos they're stupid enough to help for free.

I noe sometimes im money-motivated. But i understand that at times we do help each other becos we're gd frens/colleagues wadever. But the way that coach treats his men is like shit. U need more details u can come to me, i will quote u 5 pages full of examples. FuK

I despise him, truly.

Inefficiency once again.

I seriously seriously cannot stand it.

'ok i'll pass u on Fri for ur vetting'

BlaRDy ShiT. Fri gonna end. den i'll haf to postpone my things on my side again. for the 2nd time. It seems to the people at my side that im inefficient, but in actual fact, its someone else's fault.

Gonna go for course. BoreD!!! It's Friday. Course frm 230 to 530? WTH

I've been irritated since morning. Early morning ppl mus start to irreeeetate me with nonsense. THey cant behave themselves, they cant jus stand still and keep their mouths shut. What is wrong with them!?

They instigate their idiotic frens to do the wrong things for them so that they wont get the blame. And their idiotic frens will listen to them! How stupid can someone get!?!?!? Pls enlighten me.

Today is actally a 'half' day and i've got 2 hrs of work out of the full 3 hrs.

One more day to Fri, 2 more days to SaT, 3 more days to sunday... YAY!!!

Im so tired. weird thing is dat yesterday was monday, i wasnt havin monday blues. But im havin it now! Monday blues delayed. now is 140pm. my mind is still slping... wah laoZ.z.z.z..

im jus gonna complain and nag.
im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired

29 turned up today, i repeated my instructions 29x! can u believe it?! i couldnt either. Simple things they cant even do. WTH! and the best part is that they know they cant do, they know they cant understand, but they simply wont shuT uP & listen. How can 2 contradicting things happen at the same time?!

im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired

i know this will not help me to be any un-tired.

im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired

no one understands. F*Ck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The long-waited Sept has finally made its grand entry!
*CheerZ*

*more CheErz*

*AppLauZez*

haha

anyway, my 1st official tchrs' day spent at a really lousy restaurant at Sentosa. WAH LiAOZ... u cant believe how bad it is!

Incident 1:
this waitress was servin coffee/tea aft the buffet. Then she served my fren & I tea and forgot dat my the other fren wans coffee. So after pouring 1/5 cup of tea into the cup, my fren reminded her that she wanted coffee. Instead of apologising n getting a new cup, guess wat??

she topped up the other 4/5 with coffee lor!
I thought my frn has a weird taste for drinks thn when i realised that it was an unacceptable mistake, i almost wanted to shout out loud!

Oh ya.. the 1st time i have good luck! haha.. i won the 2nd prize in the lucky draw! $100 best denki vouchers. I was quite shocked when they called out my number. Never knew i had such luck man! Jus before me was my fren who won a DVD player. She was saying *shit* when her number was called out for the DVD player. haha.. and a loudr *SHIT* by a guy behind me who won himself a tea-set. hahahahha....

Anyway... some photos..

ok.

im seldom in the mood to say things frm my heart especially at this weird hr.tmr's a workin day but stil i have alot to say.

goin back to my 2nd sentence - seldom in the mood to say serious things frm my heart. why? i reckon that i dont like to admit to my true-est feelings and true-est self. There's is nothing worth remembering about. One day if my life fades to its dim-est rays... will anyone notice?

Was browsin through the photos in frenster. Looking at the things my frens are doing.. those whom i haven seen for a long time, those whom i think and feel in my opinion, might not do too well, those whom arrogant me think are losers, i think they are doin pretty fine. Fine-er than me at least, to me.

If there is a way to turn back, will i be what i am now? Will i do what i am doin now? guess its gd that ther's no way i can turn back time. Cos i believe even if i did, i will stil be a failure like what i am today. I fail to accomplish my minimum expectations of myslf. If i had worked hard then.. wil i now be where they are?

I have weird and unbearable temper and behaviour. Im arrogant i noe. I refuse to admit that im not as gd as some others. But sometimes, i do feel the despair when i see those ppl doin better than me. Why is it that i cant even be like a normal 22 year old? THose who went through 3 yrs of uni, 3 yrs of happy sch life. I was given a chance but due to my odd behaviour, i gave up opportunities to gain more frens, more experiences... and more happy memories. SH*t me

RegreT? maybe.

what's wrong with me? what's wrong with my life?

A blessing in disguise? Maybe. I hope.

Is it true that each one of us already have a destined path to take?

I dont wish to admit defeat. That's why up til now i still feel the resentment towards her. I know its not her fault. But i simply cant bring myslf to treat her like everything has not happened before. I think im such a loser. I think she can feel it. But i dont care. I cant fake my way through.

Maybe im destined to take the longer route to achieve what i want. Im doin it cos i dont want to lose out eventually. I dont like the feeling of being 1 grade lower than the others and always doing the same amount of job but get peanuts. I know its very shallow to equate achievement with rewards. But still, that's the most impt factor to me.

Even when i want to express myslf, i find that i cant. I cant seem to find the right words. Just what's wrong with me.

i give up