Sunday, January 29, 2006 @ 1/29/2006 12:58:00 AM
| hAppy new year |
There are many things i wanna do.
But with who?
Thursday, January 26, 2006 @ 1/26/2006 04:49:00 PM
| Mood Swings |
Something is lacking in my life.
Sometimes i hve this very strong feeling.
Sometimes i think i quite like my job. Sometimes i think my job sux so much that i feel like quitting the next day.
Many times, i dont know what im doing. Many times i find that everyone is mocking at me. Many times i envy other people's life.
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Had this coupon to a free "computer aided fortune analysis":
- you are the type who wants only a few bosom friends.
(was reading this sentence, nodded my head, then almost lol when i saw what follows: but because you are so helpful, you attract many friends who are reassured by your reliability and loyalty)
- you are non-confrontational by nature unless forced by circumstances
(Not forced. Depends on my mood. like the title suggests)
- you can be very ferocious when pissed
(yes, and unreasonable too)
- you are nobel in character, idealistic, generous, independent and sympathetic
(ya rite)
- However, you are a jealous lover.
(most of the time it's very true. Recently i told him, i will never allow him to send another girl home even if it's jus a lift, not even drive another girl ard. Yes so this pt is very true)
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Thursday, January 19, 2006 @ 1/19/2006 10:31:00 PM
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My fren's gettin married.
She is slightly older than me. Im not talkin abt 1 or 2 yrs older. Its jus like 6 WEEKS older. She's gettin married soon. Her bf proposed.
Do i sound like im desperately hopelesS?
Im not thinkin of settlin down anytime soon. Cos i think i haven met the one yet. I seriously doubt and doubt.
Her bf planned everything step-by-step. Planned for the future. Planned to get her surprises. 24hrs after her bf proposed, she still cant stop grinning... The process is jus so sweet.
I hope my guy's a planner. I hope i can jus sit back and watch him do all the planning. I hope to jus sit around and feel safe that someone will see to everything. I dun wanna be the one planning. I dun wanna be the one tryin to manage everything on my own when someone else jus cant be bothered abt anything else other than his obsession over his passion. Most of all, i dun wanna be taken for granted.
Dun wanna think too much. i'll be busy. Like today, was so bz that i didnt even call him and i din even realised til he called. At that point, i really hoped that he would call and be nice. No, instead he jus started sayin lousy things abt me not calling. Fine. i wont feel so bad for forgetting everything else.
I have a strong feeling. In the next 2 yrs or so, its either i'll get married, or i'll be single again...
Sunday, January 15, 2006 @ 1/15/2006 05:28:00 PM
| 1st entry |
1st entry in 2006. Kinda late huh.
Lost all my enthusiasm in blogging (like there was any in the 1st place). I think im losin the enthu for many other things as well. like meeting anyone on sundays... I always wanted to live my sundays to the fullest cos its my only free (as in really no work) day. Today, I jus wanna be with myslf, spend time bein alone.
Had been so bz for the past 2 weeks since work resumed after a long while.Everyday's schedule packed like shit. It's so mentally draining. I see many colleagues in their lousiest state so far. Everyone buzzing ard in a mad rush everyday. And i always tell them: You are gonna miss my voice. why? coZ im gonna be even bzier in feb when my course starts.
Think many things have changed if he realise. I would nv have done the things i do now in the past cos i cared so much. I would try my very best to be nice on special days. But not anymore. Cos ppl tend to take things for granted. Then why should i be the one cracking my head to think of dum things to do when they think that it's 'no big deal'.
I wanted so much for things to turn out the way i want. But now i have decided that many things are not within my control and i should not be dreaming too much. It's always very disappointing to hope for something and dun get it. I learn how not to expect, how not to hope for anything.
New year resolution? none. never had.
probably jus this one:
Be as bz as possible. To achieve tangible rewards - my ultimate goal. So that i will change my priority in life.
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