Sunday, October 31, 2004 @ 10/31/2004 11:47:00 PM
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Sometimes its hard to get back what u lose... everytime i think about the bad times we've had, i begin to wonder and doubt the future i have in mind with him. No doubt we are happy at times when we are together, but some elements are lacking. I need him to cheer me up when im down, i dun need him to piss me off further. But always, the latter happens. He doesnt see the need to coax me even if he knew that i was pissed by him. I think it's impt. It's impt that i feel happy and secure with him.
In my life, everything needs a beginning and an ending. It's difficult for me to leave something half done. So when im unhappy with him, i want him to settle it with me properly. Say something nice, do something sweet.. watever it is, i need to end the problem. If not i just wont feel happy for the whole day or even more than that.
Sometimes i think im selfish. Im always thinking of myself. What i wan, what i expect. But it's really hard for me to give my all if i dun think its worth it. Im selfish. I admit....
Today's our 44mths anniversary. So?
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