Thursday, August 05, 2004 @ 8/05/2004 02:12:00 AM
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Once again.. i feel the overwhelming emptiness creeps within me. The times when i had to stay alone in my room after lessons.. no where to go, no one to be with... as i frantically search for someone who truly cares. How i wish i have something to cling onto. A passion? A hope, a wish? Maybe just anything.
What am I really thinking of or thinking about? Or am I really thinking? Thinking about my life, what my futures lies for me, about my significance in this world.. or is there any to talk about in the first place.. When i see people around me doing the things they like, when i see people being so incredibly satisfied and happy about their life, when i see people being so lucky in their entire lives.... what about me? Has the world forgotten about me?
Was reading up some bastard's blog somewher, why is she so bloody happy? What is there to be happy about? Tiffany jewellery? ha.. am i jealous or am i jealous... damit
Maybe im meant to be forgotten. Im exhausted, im trying hard to live up expectations. But can i? When circumstances are not within my control, when i see myself being treated unfairly and ther's nothing i can do, when im not given what i deserve, what do i do? what should i do? what must i do? Or just what can i do?
Im stuck in life. Cant seem to move on very much.
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